Trying to Catch Feathers in the Wind

As I enjoyed the warm sunshine at my back and the cold, freshly stirred dirt in my hands, I could not find that routine sense of calm and peace in my heart.  Normally, in this space of solitude, I enjoy the quietness of my thoughts, the dogs following me around the garden to assist and the fresh, cool air in my lungs.  But something nagged at me today.  I was trying to catch feathers in the wind.

You know those times when you wish you could capture and collect your words just after they cross your lips, the moments when negativity settles in and you wish you could rewind and re-do?  That's where I was today. I let myself get a negative attitude earlier this week and was rehearsing those things in my mind.  I had been a drizzle in the conversation with my colleagues and I am ashamed. Again I learn that once those words have been released, it is impossible to catch them and take them back, as if they were feathers in the wind.

Since I can't undo, I must focus on changing from here.  I can apologize and own my attitude.  Then from there I must guard my thoughts, my attitudes and my speech.  From here out, I am forecasting less wind and more sunshine in my future!